• Who is Carmine Antonio?

  • The 6th – Part 1

  • Atta Boy – To the Unsung Father

  • Traditions – Volume 4 – Everything Comes to an end

  • Traditions – Volume 3 – AJ’s Journey

  • Traditions – Volume 2

    AJ grasps the cool brass of his Father’s study door knob. Cotton mouth, sweat trickling down his forehead, clammy hands… “what am I doing” was his only thoughts as he rotates that knob. The cherry wood door creaks open. AJ straightens his posture as his eyes lock with the dark set eyes of his father. Slowly swinging his glasses in his hands, papers spread over the massive study desk, AJ’s father smiles for the first time in years. Stoic, almost like his brain needs to tell him to take a step against his will, AJ remembers to breathe. His father pushes back from the desk in his rolling leather chair. “AJ… no matter what happens from this point forward, you have made a choice, whether it was the urge of knowledge or the need for thrill, you are in the same position I was in at your age.

    AJ tilts his head in a dog-like understanding… “16 son… that is when I was given my first envelope. 16, headed into my senior year of high school and my father changed my life forever. Most of me will forever be grateful for my own father bringing me into this life, but there is still that little part of me that holds onto humanity. That is going to be the one hurdle that you will continuously face. Decades our family has been a part of history, making the world a better place, without any recognition of what we have done to make said world more peaceful and rectified. That is how we like it, that is our pact to society… we take care of what is needed, no one finds out.”

    AJ finally takes a seat in the other leather chair in the study as he is absorbing all his father is saying. His father is looking out the window as he pauses… the crackling fire pops ever so more than usual as AJ’s senses are heightened. Thoughts racing through his mind as he glances at the papers on the desk. Neatly placed piles, pictures of random people with a red X through them. Thumping is felt in AJ’s chest as he clears his throat. Silence is broken as he looks up from the papers to his father. His father is staring back at him with a smirk and a glassy look in his dark set eyes. “17 minutes of me explaining before you looked at my desk. you figured it out yet son? It took me 24 minutes when my father explained what we do in this world behind the scenes… in the shadows… in silence.”

    AJ cracks his knuckles as he tries to comprehend the magnitude of this conversation. So… we… are… “we do not just kill son” AJ’s father cut him off. “It is a science, we do our homework, we have standards, we take out those needed to be gone. History shows us the path and future is where we will bring this world to a better place. I used to have hesitations when my father trained me. I would see the in-depth process of our traditions. But after years of training and shadowing my father, I finally got the hang of it. After my mind was cleared from my first tradition, I understood the importance of what we do. I did my second tradition… I studied the history of a man who was targeting young students coming out of Columbia University. He thought they would have money so he would attack them, lure them, or convince them to come back to his place. He made a few of them get the money from their parents but no matter the scenario he killed them. After watching this man for three months, he ended up killing two people. There would never be a third…” AJ stared at his father as everything started making sense. The quietness of his Father, the cold feeling he always got as he looked at his father, the hours he spent in his study. Always thinking how much work his father did at home as a college professor just did not make sense. AJ clears his throat as his father tries justifying their traditions.

    His father stops in silence as AJ stands up. Face to face… AJ takes a breath… “When do we start?”

  • Traditions – Volume 1

    Drip… Drip… Drip… the mist of the morning dew is in the 5am air as AJ looks down. The dripping continues as his gloved right hand slightly shakes. The blade within said hand has a dark crimson color… as the blood is dripping off. Still shaking he remembers his training. “Focus son… you know what needed to be done… you know what to do next.

    AJ shakes his head and wraps the knife in the cloth he takes out of his pocket, as he was taught. The lifeless body is on the ground, twenty paces from the man’s office within the History building. A professor at NYU. This man has spent the last 25 years as a professor of History and the last 21 year as a killer. AJ scans the area again, rule two – make sure your surroundings are clear… No witnesses, no cameras, no way of tracing. While this is AJ’s first kill, he knows it is his most important. His father trained him well. Locate your target, follow said target for 3 months to learn their patterns, find that one spot in their routine that is the hot zone to strike. This is the third most important rule. While not getting caught is obvious; becoming immune to every hesitation, becoming machine-like, striking, and getting out. That is the goal set forth. After years of training and learning from his father, AJ finally did what needed to be done. Following in the footsteps of his father he is ready to take over the family tradition… kill those that deserve… kill those that think they are above the law… make the hard choice to better society.

    Lets take this back to the beginning… AJ and the family tradition he is about to become apart of. 16 years old. AJ’s just coming home from football practice. A manila envelope is pinned to his closet door in his bedroom… the outside reads “open at 7:21pm, follow the directions, find out what our family tradition is all about.” AJ takes a deep breath as he knew something was always off about his father. Never questioned it, just thought ever since his mom passed away he was just an eccentric, dark person that dove into his work.

    7:20pm… 7:21pm… AJ, holding the envelope rips it quickly open. A letter is inside. “Good… you know how to be patient… you know how to follow the initial standards our traditions set forth… take a minute and understand that the moment you make the choice to go forward with learning our traditions there is no turning back. If you choose to ignore our traditions and want to live your life any way you see fit then burn this letter and heat up the dinner I left you on the stove. No hard feelings if that is your choice. You are my son and I will always be proud of anything you set your mind too. If you do decide to take part in our traditions then meet me in the study. I am behind my desk. The moment you open the door is the beginning of your path of learning our traditions.” AJ’s heart is racing… droplets of sweat form on his brow. He thinks long and hard…

    In the study his father is sitting with his elbows on the desk, his hands perched under his chin, his glasses slightly swaying in his grasp… silence for what seems like an eternity, besides the crackling of the fire within the study. He picks up his cool glass of scotch. Brings it to his lips and sighs as the silence with the fire continues… he stares at the study’s door… the brass knob begins to turn…

  • Evolving Eve

    As a child my favorite day was always December 24th… as an adult it still is. However; it has evolved into so much more. I was never one that thrived on the gifts. Even when I was young, I was more excited for what happened the day before Christmas, rather than Christmas Day. For those that know me, Christmas is in my blood… always. The season just makes me smile and I base a lot of who I am on the feeling I get during Christmas time. This is my story of my favorite time of the year and my favorite day… I always look forward to Christmas Eve.

    As far back as I can remember, my parents, brother and I would spend each Christmas Eve and Christmas Day at my Gram and Pop’s house. Weeks leading up to my favorite day, we would prepare for it all. Putting up lights, getting a real Christmas tree, coming together as a family. Each year would mean more and more to me. I would see our family come together like it was an everyday event, even if we all saw each other only a few times a year. All leading up to Christmas… I looked forward to Christmas Eve.

    Year after year, my Dad would be working his tail off during the holiday rush, as he was a leader in the retail industry. Year after year, my Mom would work her tail off preparing all the gifts and getting the ingredients for all the food to be cooked on Christmas Eve. As a child I did not comprehend the magnitude of all that my parents did for two days out of the year. But they made sure that those 48 hours were the best they would be for their children. They knew how much I loved Christmas, but not how much I looked forward to Christmas Eve.

    Every year when Christmas Eve came we had a routine… every year we would wake up, get all the gifts packed in the car, head over to Gram and Pops, then head to the cemetery. We would bring Christmas flowers to my Aunt’s grave prior to really starting our Christmas Eve. Heading back to the house, I would get giddy… so much anticipation and excitement. Gram had all the tables set, the “big” table and the “kids” table… I did not make the cut to the big table until my teenage years when we all were bumped up to an even bigger table. Alas, I looked forward to Christmas Eve.

    The three biggest things I always looked forward to on Christmas Eve were my family coming over, the smells that Gram and Mom created from the kitchen, and most of all, Dad coming home from work. Each year my uncles, aunts, and cousins would show up ready for a fun filled Eve. Uncle Sal always came with a new game, uncle Anthony always came making us laugh, and overall the family was one. Gram and Mom would be hustling for hours in the kitchen to make the traditional Italian feast. Multiple fish meals, pounds of macaroni, and appetizers galore. The steam, the smells of crab, shrimp, lobster, macaroni coming from the kitchen would envelope my senses… “this is Christmas Eve” would always resonate in my mind. For years, the same memories and feelings. While the day would go on, games would be played, laughter had, food served, and alas… Dad walks in. Mom and Gram still bringing plates and giant bowls of food out as Dad opens the door. Each year something unique with Dad’s entrance, my favorite was always when he had his tie wrapped around his head… the signal of ready for a good time. We all cheer and welcome him into our fun filled day. Mom wipes her brow, embraces Dad, and keeps soldiering on with Gram to complete the feast of multiple courses. This is why I look forward to Christmas Eve.

    Hours go by… more games and food. As the years went on and we all got older the traditions altered some. When we all got older the later we stayed up. Drinks became a part of the traditions and we all partook in the ultimate tradition that Pop loved… Sausage and Octopus Salad at Midnight. For years this was always our Christmas Eve… as time moved on and families expanded, things eventually did change. Like all families, we also ended up losing some loved ones. Gram and Pop will forever celebrate the Christmas Eve I loved as a child with all of us. We bring them Christmas flowers every Christmas Eve morning now. As we all get older some traditions still hold strong. At Thirty-four I know so much more than I did at four. I learned through the years that the feeling of love, happiness, and the Christmas spirit always came from the traditions we created. Now, I am able to build on those traditions with my daughter, parents, and forever expanding family. Within a year, I will be married once again. Within a year, Samantha and I will build on our own Christmas Eve traditions. This year we are combining traditions, some old and some new… but this is why I look forward to Christmas Eve.

    Ally, my daughter, she has multiple families and we all make sure she knows the love we all have for her. We mesh well and make sure she has the best of all worlds. This year is special as after spending time with Sam’s family and their traditions, on Christmas Eve night, Ally will be with us into Christmas Day. This year, she will see all traditions of our Christmas Eve. This year I will get to feel the joy as a parent to see her laugh, smile, eat, stay up late, and just enjoy family. I now know why my parents put so much into a mere 48 hours, as on Christmas day the happiness will be overflowing watching her open gifts at the crack of dawn, with Nyx running around trying to swat the ripped wrapping paper. Coming home with Ally and Sam to a house filled with Christmas Eve joy, my Mom cooking crab sauce with macaroni, and Dad still strolling in after a long day at work, still makes me feel the passion of the season. Sharing it with my loved ones as an adult means so much more to me. This is why I look forward to Christmas Eve… Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!

  • Christmas

    As a child I would be ecstatic for this day to come

    Even as an adult, it is music to my ears to hear those drummers drum

    Older now and perspective is still the same

    Sitting with my Daughter, watching Rudolph play the Reindeers game

    So many years have gone by with one constant thing

    The spirit of Christmas… a smile it will bring

    When I was a boy, it was all about the family get togethers and gifts

    As an adult, it is much more than that, feeling the holiday bliss

    Shopping for others is what gives me a smile

    Seeing Ally rip the paper on Christmas day, as I sip Eggnog for a while

    “I knew it! Santa brought what I asked for, and I am not even done!”

    I wink at Samantha and hold her hand, while Ally examines another one

    The smile on her face is what this is all about for me

    Holiday Season can live in all of us, no matter what you may hear or see

    Tis the Season, listen to the music, eat the food, be with family

    Because when it all comes together… you can truly feel that Holiday merry

    First of many Christmas and Holiday poems/stories to come!

  • Tis The Season: A collection of Poems and Short Stories

    Christmas… Holidays… the whole season. Anyone that knows me knows there are no boundaries or limitations to my Christmas spirit. While this is the beginning of the season for most; for me this is year round. It lives inside of me, without judgement, qualms, or hesitation. Each year I get older, I still feel that giddy excitement, as the weather begins to change, the leaves fall, the smoky breath streams across the sky with every word spoken, it is time…

    I have decided to revamp my writings to what I always hold dear to me. Christmas, Holidays, and this season. Hope you all enjoy these stories and poems, even if it just brings you into the spirit of it all for one moment… that is what this is all about. Here we go!